I haven't posted anything lately. I could come up with a good reason why if I tried, but the truth is I just haven't felt like it.
I haven't weighed myself lately. I'm not too worried about it since my clothes are still getting looser. I might do it tomorrow morning just to see what it says.
I got my 30 Day Shred dvd, it is still sitting on the counter. I keep telling myself it is because it says you should use a yoga mat and I don't have one. The truth is I just don't feel like doing it. I know most people have great results with it, but I just don't have the desire to do it. I know one reason is that Jillian Michaels annoys me. I don't know why I thought it was a good idea to buy it in the first place.
I got into a disagreement with my boyfriend the other day. I don't want to call it a fight because it wasn't that. It was more of a "why are you being such a butthead" conversation. He's quitting smoking and grouchy so I am trying to be understanding. However something he said made me more aware of why he's been not as supportive as I would like. During our conversation he told me that his opinion of me doesn't matter to me. I asked why he said that and he said if it did matter I wouldn't have ever lost weight. I told him that I didn't do it for him. I did it for me. I did it because I was miserable with how I looked and hurt all the time. He said that he hurts all the time too. I know that is true. I don't imagine many people that have broken their backs don't hurt. I then asked him if there was a way, besides medication, for him to not hurt wouldn't he want to do it. He agreed that he would but then came up with the statement of "You are losing weight and are hotter than before, and you are even more out of my league now." So I do think that his reluctance to my weight loss is from his own self doubt. We talked a little after that and I assured him I have no desire to find someone else, that I love him and I will no matter what I weigh. After that we talked about all the pluses that have come with my weight loss and he agreed that it has been a good thing.
So all in all not much has been going on here in the weight loss category. I am going to try and do the Jillian Michaels dvd, if I can't bring myself to do that I will at least do my Walk Away the Pounds videos.